http://www.afullcup.com/forums/blogs/ Free forum offering free stuff,grocery coupons,printable coupons, free magazines, coupons, discounts,free samples, discount codes, bargains, deals, chat and arcade. en Wed, 25 Nov 2009 10:33:12 GMT vBulletin 60 http://img.afullcup.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.afullcup.com/forums/blogs/ http://www.afullcup.com/forums/blogs/meandphoenix/185-so-sad-have-say-goodbye-my-little-lady.html Tue, 20 Jan 2009 06:25:43 GMT I know no one really reads the blogs on here (I don't anyway) but I just wanted to type this mainly to get it out of my head more than anything.

All my life I wanted a pet so bad and we never had one growing up because they always made my mom feel guilty. So a few years ago, my dh and I went and picked out the cutest puppy ever. She was the runt of a border collie mix litter and had giant brown eyes. She had only lived around other dogs and was shaky and scared when we brought her home. She sat so tiny and small in our living room floor that first night growling at us if we tried to get anywhere near her. At about 1 am, I put on my big fuzzy black coat and coaxed her to walk outside with me to use the bathroom. I thought she might run away and I kind of didn't care at that point because she was starting to scare the crap out of me. But she didn't. She slipped back in the door behind me and resumed her post in the corner. I went to sleep on the couch and, somewhere in the wee hours of the morning, I awoke to her snuggling into the big fuzzy black coat that I was still wearing and sleeping there until dawn. I'm pretty sure I was her new mommy after that.

Once she warmed up to us, she was NUTS! When we would come home she would get so excited that she would literally run up the entire lengths of our bodies jumping off at our chests. We taught her tricks including saying "out" when she has to use the bathroom and she filled our house with so much love. And then we had our son 5 months ago. Everything changed. I finally understand, after all these years, why my mom always felt so guilty. As I play with my son, I see her sitting in the corner watching us. I call her over and she gets too hyper and I have to shoo her away before she hurts Phoenix. She is lonely and it breaks my heart but I can not, not matter how much I love her, take time away from my son to give to her. It is simply not the order of things. Besides, I've always known deep down inside that she longs to run free. I see her watch the neighborhood dogs outside when they play and she wags her tail and wimpers.

The deciding factor came 2 days ago when she got too hyper when my husband was playing with her and bit him, I mean she drew blood. She didn't mean to hurt him but she will always be a bit of a wild animal and what was cute before, like when we would laugh hysterically as she lowered her center of gravity and raced around the room at lightening speed around and around and around is now a danger to the most important little man on earth to me. And I will tear down mountains to ensure the safety of my son.

So the time has come when we know the right thing to do for everyone is to get rid of her.

I'm talking to an organization that helps to place "troubled" animals, like our wild little Lady, in new homes. I just got done typing a description of her to a potential owner.

And, as I sit here and type this at 1 am, choked with sobs, she is lying curled up asleep beside me with complete trust. I can't sleep. I keep thinking, what will become of her? Will she cry inside when she realizes that we gave her up? Do dogs even think that way? I don't know. All I know is that I will miss her so much and it feels like my heart is breaking in two.



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