[poshpoodle]

Ok, long story- will try to make it brief.
I put on a lot of weight in a short time frame- like 23 pounds in 4-5 weeks. Until then I weighed 125, dieted and dropped to 119- then jumped up to 142. I was alarmed but went to the doctor thinking I might have underactive thyroid. I also have been suffering migraines for about 8 years. I have been VERY tired and have been sooo moody especially around my periods that i hate myself.
I went to the doc, they ran a bunch of tests and I was told I have Insulin Resistance (not happy about this as it is harder to lose weight). I am not at much higher risk for type II diabetes- my grandmother died at 66 due to complications from diabetes. THey put me on metformin and I had a reaction and can no longer take it. But had to go for more blood tests and was told over the phone "everything came back fine, watch diet and exercise to get a hold on IR and PCOS". I told her I did not have PCOS to which she said I did- well, that was the first I had heard of my being told I had it.
This was crushing. There is no cure. Symptoms can include weight gain, skin tags, dark coloring of the skin, and male patterened baldness. mood swings, etc. I am really upset. I can not sleep, I have had anxiety attacks. I feel like no one understands how this is affecting me- my hubby nor my family seem interested in what all of it means for me. I am angry. I am not very over weight, and have lost a few pounds. I am 5'2 and weigh now 135 pounds. I cry when I try on clothes as nothing fits me- I have alwyas had self body issues. I have always thought of purging after eating- even when I was thin by societies thoughts- but never did. Of course I think of it more now.....but haven't. I will seek out another doctor and hopefully have MORE PROFESSIONAL council. Any thoughts, prayers,a dn or advice from any of you, especially if you suffer from either one or both of these are appreciated. I know I am throwing out a lot of personal thoughts- I guess I have always been this way- but now I am just at a loss. THANK YOU! Feel free to PM me if you prefer!